When "guilt" becomes a dominating emotion..

Growing up involves a lot a changes in the way you feel about a lot of things. Becoming a mom has made me think in a different way about nutrition/diet/time/rest/education. All these existed before, but only limited to yourself. Now that I have to make sure that I set a good example for my daughter, I find myself stressing about it even more.

Similarly, I have realized that "guilt" becomes a prevalent thought in your mind. Guilt about? About leaving Avanee behind with a domestic help for 2-3 hours a day so that I can get my work in order... About the focus on avanee's meals only! Neeraj gets leftovers :) Guilt about living so far from parents that they can't just come whenever they want.. Guilt about wanting to succeed professionally at also as a good mom, and not being able to balance both.. Guilt about not keeping in touch with friends and relatives as much as I should.. Guilt about slacking about many things I should be doing... Guilt about many more such things..

I guess, I am a pessimist. I would like to think about the worst case scenario and fret over it.. I know there are many people in similar or worse (?!) situations.. But as Neeraj tells me always I "thunk" too much..

Superlative of think is thunk!