The end..

Did I know that the end was inevitable? yes.. Was I prepared after two years? No.. Is two years a good enough timeframe to prepare yourself mentally? No.. Does meeting people with bigger sorrows/tragedies make you feel better? No..

There is a voice inside me that is screaming loudly.. I feel like crying continuously might make me feel better, but I don't. There is only so much that you can cry? Why can't we have a switch to forget people/memories? You can't run away from memories.. or places. Visting those places makes me feel like I am closer to her.. yet.. just want to scream so loudly.. Just want to grieve till I can't grieve any more..if thats possible..

I had a long conversation with my mama, I asked him if he believed in rebirth.. he said, how does it matter? Even if a person comes back as your child, you will love the baby a lot.. if not, you will still love the baby a lot.. So, stop searching, because there is no end to hope..

The only absolute is your own death..