Swades.. the perspective

Last night, I was watching Swades, the movie. I watched it the first time when I was in the US. Neeraj had already decided he wanted to go back to India, but I was a little skeptical. It was not much of an issue, since a major part of me wanted to go, but there was a tiny part of me that really liked the comforts of the American life.

I remember driving on Central expressway to work and listening to "yeh jo des hain tera" ... and I really felt like it was my calling to go back home. Whenever I felt doubtful, I used to listen to this song and it fortified our decision. Silly, right how one song (from a bollywood film) can mean so much to you...

Cut to last night, I was watching the movie, and all those memories came back flooding.. and I realize, was it God's way of telling me that I was needed back home? Back then, I never knew what was waiting for me. We have been back for a little over three years, three years that have completely changed my life. To the point that I sometimes feel that had I not come back, would things have been different? So many what ifs.

At that time, the song meant going to back my country, to make a difference. Now, all I really want is to have a different life..